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26th November 2008, it’s been 3 years since Late Amy left us, yet everything is still fresh in my mind. On that dark afternoon, I was sitting in front of my PC doing some work. Amal called me, crying, telling me the news. I just couldn’t believe it, I was speechless.. totally speechless. I picked up Amal from work and she was crying all the way while I could not utter a single word. Later that night, we opened our hearts to accept the hard fact. Allah loves Amy more than we do, and life has to go on. May Allah bless Amy.
29th November 2008, it was Amal’s birthday. No celebration this year, I texted her but she didn’t reply until now, I wonder where is she. 3 years ago, we held a celebration, not a grand one though, just gathered our close friends and had dinner under Amal’s treat. It was somewhat a somber night especially when one of the seat was reserved for Late Amy. Amal cried again and I gave her a hug. I bought her roses to cheer her up, and later that night she was a happy girl when I sent her home. Now when I thought of those good ol’ days, I cam feel the space between me and her.
1st December 2008, it was Late Amy’s birthday. She could have been 23 years old now. But she didn’t even make it for her 20th birthday.
And also happy birthday to my Star and Rainbow, many happy returns dear.
I guess the past week has got significant dates for me huh.. Not to mention my Cute Little Hana’s birthday coming up too. Looks like there’s going to be a celebration, I accompanied her pre-ordering her cake yesterday. She’s been a company to me lately, at work, MSN, text messages, as usual with our craziness and jokes. As always, she never failed to cheer my day.
This year, my Hari Raya was spent mostly on bed. I fell ill on the last day of fasting, somehow it was good that the moon was “not sighted” although on that night, malam raya, I saw the crescent just the way I always saw it on the evening of the first day of raya. Some elder eyes said the moon was 2 days old. Oh well, its up to the authorities to decide anyway, we as loyal subjects can only obey and follow what was announced on TV. Apa-apa pun, raya tetap raya.
Back to my illness, I reported sick on the last day of puasa, so yea, 5 days off for me, but too bad it was spent on bed for almost 2 days. The eve of Hari Raya, as always, with the harmonious recital of the Takbir filling the serene atmosphere, I thought of Amy. How could I ever forget that night, 3 years ago, me and her made peace after some complications in our friendship. I still remember how we didn’t talk for quite some time, to the extent of brushing shoulders without even saying ‘Hi’. She was a lovely girl, but I just don’t know what went wrong, I guess things just changed after I confessed my feelings for her.
So that malam raya 2005, I sent SMS greetings to almost every Muslim friend in my phonebook including her. I never expected her to reply me coz I know she must have hated me. But no, Amy was such a gracious girl and she would never hate anyone. In fact, she was the first one to reply to my text. I still remember every single word, with the short forms and all,
“Zul, ku kan minta maaf dari ujung rambut ke ujung kaki sal nda betagur sma u langsung. Slmt ri raya!”
So I replied,
“It’s ok Amy, lupakan tah yg sudah2. Friends?”
“Yeah, friends! (“,)”
And we became friends once again, as usual texting each other and all, until that tragic day few weeks after that, just 3 days before her 20th birthday, when I already bought her a card that never reached her hands. That day when she succumbed in a tragic car accident, Allah took Amy back to where she belong. We were shocked, devastated. I can’t believe the news when Amal called me amidst her tears. Really, I was in a state of.. hmm.. I don’t even know how to explain..
Amy, her mother, sister, uncle and auntie, they were buried on the same night. After the funeral, me and Amal decided, Allah loves Amy more, while us, we still have our own incomplete journey. It was hard for us, and it must have been harder for her surviving family members. But life has to go on until such time when it is our turn to return to our Creator.
I may have told this story already, again and again, same time every year. Search back to my last year’s hari raya entry and you will find this same old story. Now here I am, retelling the same story again. It’s just that this memory will never fade as long as I live. I might tell the same story again the same time next year’s Raya, I’m just cherishing my memories of her, with prayers in rememberance.
When Ayu came into my life, she may looked like Late Amy in certain angle, she may have some identical characteristics in certain ways. Perhaps that made me fell so deep for this Ayu. But as time goes by, they are not the same person, they don’t look the same and they have completely different behaviours and attitude. Apa nya orang, ada imbas saja, but they’re not the same.
Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat keatas roh Amy.
Al-Fatihah.
and I hope a year wiser. Heheh! Well, nothing much on my birthday celebration, just a gathering with Emma and my close friends, eating, laughing, chattering like a bunch of baboons. But it was fun, such a great time which I wished it never ended. Thanks guys, for the great time, the greetings, the food, the gifts, the cake, that cake from Bakerlyn was simply fantastic! What matters most were the thoughts.
As expected, Ayu forgot my birthday, no big deal though, but she text me a day after saying sorry and that she would do anything to make it up to me. This I simply replied, “It’s okay, no worries.” Not that I am expecting anything from her.
And Amal, I also didn’t hear from her. She used to be the first one to greet me, midnight on the dot. But this year I didn’t hear anything from her. But I am not upset about it though, I am just worried whether she is doing okay or not. I know things has been a roller coaster ride for her lately, her phone number always unreachable and all. I wonder if she’s fine out there. And when i didn’t hear anything from her on my birthday, I have a bad feeling that something is going on. I just hope and pray she’s well and happy out there.
How’s the new header image? I am no good with graphic design atau yang sewaktu dengannya but yea, I was just playing around with Photoshop and so that’s the outcome. The new header image 🙂 So girls, memilih tah kamu hehe..
Work sucks! You know I’ve got an opportunity to join another company but I don’t know man. I think I’m still in a bond, this I am yet to check. I’m still thinking of this generous offer though but there are certain factors which I need to consider. Well, for now I’ll just juggle the thoughts and weigh it with the current situation. I know I’ve been slacking a lot, taking my sweet time when doing my work and all.
Just when I thought my work sucks big time, Emma has got her own share of sucks big time. I haven’t been seeing much of her lately coz her work seems to be worse than mine. It’s been for the last few weeks she signed off as late as 10pm. Poor thing. Nothing beats own business, sendiri boss, sendiri kuli. At least you can do things your own way and your own time.
And today I met Amal at work, it’s been like centuries that I haven’t seen her. I was just thinking of her yesterday, wondering how is she and what is she doing, and today I bumped into her. How pleasant. We didn’t talk much though coz she was in a rush but yea, it was great to see her.
I was listening to my mp3 player when I came across the song Saat Kau Pergi by Bunga Citra Lestari. Memories suddenly came flashing back to 27th November 2005. The day that Late Amy died in a car crash. She was 19, just 3 more days before her 20th birthday. Everything still seems like yesterday, her face, her cute sleepy eyes, her smile, her giggles, her laughter, all which I will never see again, except for some photos of her which I still keep in my pendrive.
It was hard for me, hard for Amal, but it must have been harder for her surviving family members, losing 5 family members at once. How I wish it was not true, I couldn’t believe it when I first heard the news from Amal. Amal cried all the way in my car when I picked her up from work that day, while I hardly speak a word. But we had no choice to to accept the fact.
I know there was something going on between me and her, but things get complicated and we didn’t talk for some time. Until the eve of Hari Raya that year, just few weeks before she died, I sent sms greetings to my friends including her. Basically all Muslim friends in my phonebook. I didn’t expect a reply from her but alas, she was the first to reply. And I still and always remember her reply,
“Zul, ku kan maaf dari hujung kaki ke hujung rambut pasal inda betagur sama u langsung. Selamat Hari Raya.”
I replied, “It’s okay Amy, lupakan tah apa yang sudah2. Friends?”
“Yea, friends!” she replied.
And we made peace amidst the recital of the takbir on that serene and holy night. And when our friendship started to rekindle and flourish, it was time for her to leave us forever, all of a sudden. But then, death comes without a warning, no matter where we are and what we do.
Life has to go on ain’t it? We can’t be sad forever. After all Allah loves her more, nice people are usually taken early. I do miss her at times, especially when hearing to the song. All that’s left are her photos, her many poses, grins and smiles, showing how cheerful and lovely girl she was. Those smile I will never see again, but I know she’s smiling down on us from above.
I’m lost for words actually, like sometimes I just dunno what to say or write. Ok lah from now on my language will be rojak2 one, kes malas kan mengarang lah ni. Tulis saja apa yang terlintas di kepala and send the data directly to my fingers without proof-reading Heheh!
Since I’ve been in the mellow mood lately, I opted to turn on my 90s playlist, the songs which has some sentimental memories for me. Songs like Roxette’s Vulnerable, Def Leppard’s When Love and Hate Collides, E17’s If You Ever.
E17’s song If You Ever has got a lot of meaning for me. You see I used to be close with this girl, say this was like 10 years ago. We’re still close though but it’s just that we don’t see much of each other lately. Just like me and my buddy Amal. This girl’s name is Ira, we were as close as couples. We do things a couple would do, things like me sending her and picking her up from work everyday, do shopping together, pokoknya everywhere we go, we were always together, macam belangkas nya orang tua2. Even sometimes bejalan pun pegang2 tangan.
So yea, of course people thought that we were couples kan. But we agreed that we won’t bother what other people say about us, as long as we know who we are. Hmm maybe there was some mutual but unspoken feelings between us, but I guess it’s better if things stay that way. So that E17’s song, it’s the song we always sang together. We used to spend time cruising the highway from east to west and west to east, singing, howling in the middle of the night. And when I hear this song, for sure Ira will be the one who came into my mind.
Speaking of Amal, she texted me last night to tell me that she got promoted, so I replied asking for details but up to now she hasn’t responded, I guess her credit ran out. Biskut tah jua banar, sekejap ader, sekejap takder.. And she mentioned about how she miss our good ol days together. Heheh blast from the past kept coming huh?
It’s 1130pm and I just got back from work. As I mentioned before we had this office thingy going on and thank God it’s all over. I can’t wait till the weekend where I can sleep till late compensating for the lack of sleep I’ve had for the past 4 days. It’s good that I worked with wonderful people and we never failed to share lots of light moments. Apart from working with my rowdy new colleagues, I got the chance to meet my lovely previous colleagues too. If only my buddy Amal was there for the whole 4 days but she was only assigned to attend on Monday.
I am not a workaholic person, and I never took my work home. But somehow I can be committed to it because I enjoy making everyone happy especially customers, both internal and external. All in all, despite the eyebags and all, it was all good!
Oh yea, and I get to see Eza for 2 days in a row. Don’t ask how and why, but basically the 4 exhausting days somehow led to an opportunity to meet My Star and Rainbow. It’s not everyday that I see her or talk with her. So many things to talk about in so little time. I hope to see her again very soon.
I need a beauty sleep now, it’s not my day off yet so yea, still and early day tomorrow. It has been a wonderful week!
It’s kinda funny since last night I’ve bumped into the girls from the header image. First I met Eza doing some shopping at The Mall, it’s been ages since I last met her. Well we don’t meet up that much, especially with her busy with her studies and all, but it was great to see her last night. Pretty and cheerful as always, and her hair, yes her hair looks exactly like in the header image. Heheh. Hope I’m gonna see her again soon, perhaps for coffee, just to catch up on so many things.
And today, we had this corporate thingy going on. Yea never ending! I wasn’t into it but heck it turned out to be a great day. If last weekend I spent half a day with Ayu, today, unknowingly, Amal my buddy was assigned to a same task with me. So basically I spent a whole day with her. She wasn’t really feeling well, but she adapted well with the team, we were like laughing and joking all along. Singing our favourite songs, having the time of our life just like the good old days.
After work, me, Amal and few other friends went for dinner at The Mall, and I bumped into Cute Little Hana who was about to watch a movie. Cute as always, like a little baby holding a big cup of popcorn, I was so happy to see her, I think it was August since we last met.
And back to the dinner, Amal wanted to eat dinner at the restaurant where we celebrated her birthday two years ago. The place never change, we reminesced where we sat during that birthday party, she still remember how she cried, how I hugged her, what gifts I gave her, etc. It’s all coming back to us now. Well, I’m glad the bond between me and Amal didn’t change, we’re still as rowdy and crazy just like those days. I don’t know when we will do this again, I hope the time will come.
So yea, I bumped into Eza, Amal and Cute Little Hana. Of course I did see Emma for a while today. Except I didn’t meet Ayu and Fizz. I talked with Ayu on the phone for a while though, and as always there’s my daily text conversations with Fizz. Oh yea I think I haven’t mentioned this. I’ve met Fizz in person, the only reader I have met in person. That was last week I think, I was just accompanying her while she had her hair treated at the salon.
To wrap it up, it’s been a happy but tiring day. It’s almost 2am now and I gotta wake at 6am tomorrow, I am tired but I still feel hyper. Perhaps it’s the coincidental and unintentional meeting and seeing Eza, Amal and Cute Little Hana resulted in this adrenaline rush. The girls I don’t get to see often 🙂
It’s kinda funny how the past few weeks have been birthdays for those so dear to me. First it was Amal’s, then Eza’s, and today it’s the Cute Little Hana’s birthday. Wish you a happy birthday lil sister, and hope you enjoy your day with a blast. It has been ages since I met her except for some text messaging or MSN. I even missed her Hari Raya open house and I know I owe her chocolates as a birthday present. Heheh! Like Eza, I know she’s been busy with her further studies thus we haven’t been catching up on things lately, but I’m sure she kept track of me by reading this blog. Well lil sister, God bless you with success and happiness. Can’t wait for you to return to our workplace.
On the other hand, I kinda miss travelling. With my new responsibilites at my new work station, I reckon I might not get a lot of business trips just like my previous post. I’ve been flying here and there but honestly I can’t get enough because I just love travelling. My former colleague just got back from New Zealand while Ayu from Aussie. Cool huh? I still remember how me and Ayu had plans to go for a holiday in Australia when we were still ‘together’, that would be sweet ain’t it! LOL! But nah, I don’t think that’s going to happen. In fact I better not make it happen.
I know I’m bad. I know I’m mean, I know I shouldn’t be thinking of Ayu anymore. It is just so unfair for my darling Emma, especially without her knowing my account with Ayu during our ‘cold war’. Sometimes I feel I am being dishonest and lying to myself. Fizz said it is Ayu that I actually want, but the fact is I just can’t be with her. It is not even an option. The only only I have is to move on. Of course I do love Emma, I really do and I am sure of it, not a rebound or whatsoever. I am willing to spend the rest of my life with her by my side, but it is just this one thing; why can’t I get over Ayu 100%? I don’t even know what is there in her that makes me so obsessed.
I don’t want to hurt anyone, especially Emma. Yes, it’s true men are bastards, I might be one, in fact I am one. But I don’t want to be one. And if I ever should get married, I don’t want to be a filthy, scandalous old man. I’ve seen these kind of men at my new work place, locking himself up in his office with someone else’s wife during lunchtime. God knows what the eff they’re doing in there. And it is such a disgusting scenario and God forbid, I don’t want to be that kind of man! Some people just enjoy the pleasure of corrupting love with lust.
Women are meant to be loved, and love is meant to be pure!
I had a good chat with my buddy Amal earlier, we were flashbacking to her birthday celebration last two years. It was just a little gathering with her close friends, her colleagues and basically some guys in her life. Funny how those guys looked at me with some jealousy in their expressions, coz Amal came and left the party with me. Heheh! You know how I used to spend a lot of time with her those days, she basically came to work in one car with me, even ran her errands with me. So people thought that we were couples. Well, there was only one reason for this, me and Amal were neighbours, our homes just 3 minutes away.
The birthday party was a successful one, well at least it made her day even though she cried for a while looking at one empty seat reserved for a lovely friend who left us forever. I hugged Amal until she stopped crying, she even lost her appetite to eat until I mouth her some noodles. And that made the guys look at me with more jealousy. Hahah! I know those boys are battling with each other for a place in her heart and yet there she was sitting next to her buddy like a couple of lovers. And we laughed when we talk about it.
We miss those days, those times when we used to hang out a lot. Movies, cruising around, watching sunsets, shisha, in fact all the things a couple of lovers would do. But we were just good buddies, sharing good and sad times, ups and downs. There might be some unspoken feelings between us but I think we are better off being good buddies for some reasons. Love comes in many different ways, and the love we have for each other is just something special.
And now it’s the distance that separates us. Amal moved back to her parent’s house and we were no longer neighbours. But everytime we meet, things never change, still the same talks, laughters and all. Except that we don’t spend much time out like we did before. And she’s got some stints in relationships so yea, that’s understandable. And so do I. But we never failed to get in touch with each other, or meet up when there’s a chance, no matter how high we are on the clouds, we are always there for each other. It’s a buddyship I will always cherish and appreciate.
Of course, now Amal knows about Emma, in fact they’ve met before. And Amal seems to know that I’ve been close with Ayu as well, although I’m sure she doesn’t know the exact thing that has been going on between me and Ayu. She just got the idea and instinct that I have something towards Ayu, well, Amal knows me better. Perhaps one day I will tell her what happened for the past few months, my complications with Emma, my obsession for Ayu, and my rebound with Emma. She’ll be happy to hear about the Emma part, but about Ayu, I’m sure she’s gonna knock my head!
It’s 1st December. World Aids Day. It was supposed to be Late Amy’s 22nd birthday, of course she’s no longer around. I miss her. Just few days before she died, we had a text conversation. I still remember when she said,
“Inda lagi lama me 20 years old, I’m getting old. Amalan lagi inda cukup.”
She never made it to 20 years old. The last sentence carried a sign which I only realised after she left to meet our Creator. She was a lovely friend, we all love her so much, but above all, God loves her more. I can never forget the way she look during teabreaks, munching on her muffin and giggling with her friends. I still remember the way she look when she finished up Amal’s salad when the 3 of us had lunch. I remember everything and it still feels like yesterday. Her sweet face, her laughter, her giggles. I will never see it again, except in my memory, her photos, and hopefully in the next life.
I miss you Amy. May Allah bless her. Amin!
After knowing each other for months, today I met Fizz for the very first time, a bit unplanned and impromptu though, she was at a saloon for some hair treatment so yea, I basically spent an hour or two accompanying her there and chat. Catching up on stuffs et al. Of course we still text each other almost every day, as always, since the day we knew each other. Our chemistry as friends never change, not even a slightest stint. Friends come and go. No matter what happens in our lives, I know we will always be there for each other. She has stopped blogging, there’s been so many things happening in her life and she just can’t write about it anymore. Of course she can write anytime on this blog being a guest author, and of course she will have me if she ever feel like letting things off her chest.
And by the way, Happy Birthday to Eza, My Star and Rainbow.
Remember last time I said with my move to my new office, I won’t have to deal directly with Ayu anymore? Today, it proved to be wrong. There will be another corporate event this weekend and I am one of the organising committee. Although I have other things to focus on but somehow I have no choice but to be a working ant in this. So yea, I came to a meeting this afternoon, and guess what, I saw Ayu manoueuvering (spell check pls) her car into the parking lot. And her fiance was on the passenger seat. Ayu smiled when she saw my car and I can see her fiance was looking at her and then at me. So I drove past, pretending not to know her just for her sake.
So I parked my car, got my bag and porty out and headed to the meeting room. I didn’t know what Ayu was up to until minutes later when I found out that she was there for the meeting as well. Yes I was wrong when I said I won’t be working directly with her again, and now, I’m gonna have to work one whole day with her this weekend. Oh well, handle things professionally. Work is work! After the meeting we talked for a while, her fiance is waiting for her in the car and as I expected, he was asking a lot of questions on why was Ayu smiling earlier when she saw me. No wonder he was staring at me when I passed by. Well, that’s their chemistry and I have no right to say anything.
I met my birthday buddy Amal last night, I went to Qlap Mall to watch Enchanted with Emma. And I bumped into my buddy Amal, poor her, she only celebrated her birthday by watching movie with a couple of friends and a cousin. Not as grand as we had last 2 years. But still, me and Emma was so happy to see her. Looks like she lost a few pounds though. But still cheerful as always.
And the movie Enchanted. I’m not really into fairy tales so the movie was just a so-so for me, quite hilarious though. It was Emma who really wanted to watch it, so yea, I thought I’d just spare my time to be with her and make her happy.
It’s my buddy Amal’s birthday today, I was the first one to greet her last night, exactly when the clock struck 12 am. Just the way she became the first one to greet me on my birthday months back. There won’t be any celebration she said, poor her, she must have been too occupied with work, wish I can take her out for dinner at least.
I still remember how happy she was when we celebrated a little party for her last 2 years, even though we were deeply saddened with the demise of our beloved Amy. Amy was supposed to attend the party, and that made Amal cried. We were still devastated but we knew we had to move on. It was somewhat a happy evening for her but somewhat somber, looking at one empty seat which remained empty forever.
I’m sorry buddy, I don’t have roses today, I don’t have something for you to remember of me on your birthday this year. All I have for you today is my prayers, may God bestow you with happiness, success, true love and His Divine Blessings. I hope you enjoyed this day even if there’s no celebration, coz I know there is always a happy person inside you.
Happy birthday buddy.
As of today, it is exactly 2 years since Amy left us. I still remember that day when Amal called me, sobbing, delivering the news I cannot believe. It was really hard for me to accept it and up to now, sometimes I still feel Amy is still around. Her laughter, her smile, her giggles. I still can see it all. It was a dark day for me, for Amal, for all those who are so dear to Amy. But God loves her more than we do. She left just 3 days before her 20th birthday, and she never lived to be 20. Times like this, let us all pray to God, may He bestow His blessings upon Amy.
Amal couldn’t stop crying that night, while I kept silent in my disbelief throughout the night. I wanted to cry but my tears just won’t fall. And later that night, with a heavy heart, we started to accept the fact that Amy is gone. Her journey in this world is done, while we still have ours.
Al-fatihah!
I haven’t got chance to visit my friends’ house this Raya. I missed out Cute Little Hana’s and Ayu’s open house, didn’t even crashed My Star and Rainbow Eza’s or Fizz’s crib. Didn’t even go to some of my cousins’. My family is just so big and it will take me months to visit each and everyone of them.
Of all the people in the header banner, I only met my buddy Amal so far and it was yesterday, it was by chance. We were supposed to go for lunch but she was too stuck with work, so I just dropped by to her office just. She was happy to see me, still salam me cium tangan and all, just like those old days.
“Pikir inda mau jumpa me raya-raya ani.” she said.
“Mau eh, lagipun if I move nanti payah tah me see you.”
She gave me that sad look. We talked for a while catching up on things, about work and all. Her sister is getting married next year and Amal seems sad that she haven’t got anyone yet. I know she’s leading a lonely and complicated life, perhaps that’s her choice. All I can do is comfort and support her.
We used to go out so often few years back, almost every day every night. In fact everyday we went to work together since we stayed 5 minutes away. Everyone thought we were couples but we just ignored the gossips coz we know who we are. There was even a wild gossip sparked by someone who has got nothing better to do about us ‘berasmaradana’ at the parking lot. Haha! I’m not that crazy enough to do crazy stuffs in public. We’ve had out shares of ups and blonde moments, hanging out together, crusing the highway, watching sunsets and dancing the night away. Not to mention our downs especially when Amy passed away, we tried hard to accept the fact that Amy is gone, but yea we managed. Having each other helped a lot.
Then Amal moved to KB, we drifted apart and spent less time together, but that does not change our buddyship. We know we’re always there for each other even though we don’t see much of each other. I know friends come and go, there are people you can actually call a friend while others are just “friends” but one thing I know for sure, Amal will forever be a true friend.
Just another lazy Sunday morning, came home around 3am last night after hanging out with some friends and a solo highway cruise to kill the time. Fizz was around the area and I thought of seeing her but somehow it didn’t happen. Hehe, maybe next time Fizz. Otherwise it would have been my first time seeing her. I didn’t sleep the moment I got home, did some stuffs on my pc and I hit the sack around 5am and here I am fresh at 10am and blogging.
I’ve got numerous questions on meebo, especially with regards to who is ‘someone’. Hehe, I sure did created one hell of a stir didn’t I? I can’t tell for the time being people, and I’m not sure if I am gonna tell. I thought of spilling the beans to her but when come to think about it, I don’t want to gamble the friendship coz I can’t afford to lose it. But I am the type of person who will tell her if I like someone, I do not expect her to love me in return, and I do not expect or hope for anything. I’d just let her know and I’ll be relieved to know that she know. Ahhh let’s see. I’ll just keep quiet for the time being.
My Star and Rainbow Eza asked me if this ‘someone’ is one of the characters on the header. Hehe well IF she is, that’s gonna leave either her or Amal then. Can’t be Ayu, Fizz or Cute Little Hana. Heheh! I know I am making her really curious but yea, she will find some day, sooner or later.
Yesterday we had sungkai at a restaurant with my office mates, except the bosses! Haha! I’m sure you all heard about this place which serves grilled food buffet for $10.90, don’t know the place? It’s just behind the QAF Plaza in Beribi. Now here’s my review and comments, or more to critic.
First of all, the food was good. I helped myself with the grilled lamb chop which made me kinda warm and restless this morning, but yea I love it! Now here’s the down part. Towards the course of the buffet, they did not refill some of the food especially the grilled items. Once all was grilled, then that’s it, you couldn’t ask for more, especially when you had to go through a big flock of hungry piranhas to get your share. I didn’t get to scoop the grilled prawn and when I asked for it, they were about to cool the coal already. And whats worst, they accepted customers’ reservations when they have a limited food preparation. Even before I could speak up, I heard some diners complained already.
But yea, I managed to eat what I wanted to eat, even though I had to share some of them with my friends, especially the grilled prawn. They didn’t even refill the tea and coffee, with that crowd, they just used a small pot for it!!! I’d say poor management on the buffet despite the good food.
Another thing, the place was cramped and packed. I found myself having to squeeze through my way amidst the crowd just to get around. I don’t know if I had to brush against breasts and butts with people in such crowd. The location of the restaurant was the biggest put-off to the experience, unless you’re early enough to secure a table indoors, like we did. Basically located on a sidewalk, the place did not provide a cozy environment to dine. Outdoors, it smell like drain water and they were lots of flies. Flies on food, that’s a major irritation for me, big time, especially for someone with weak immune system like me. Lucky us, we managed to get a table indoors, even that, they were one or two rogue flies flying around. Any health inspectors reading my blog? I think this place needs a spot check!
I guess that will be my last time visitting this restaurant. I don’t mean to destroy your reputation though nor I meant any harm. This is just my personal experience for your own improvement. Your food are delicious, it’s just that there are other factors you might need to look at.
A little bit on the new header image. I’ve received an email asking me if that’s how I really look like. Hahah! Wish I am as good looking as that image (Update: although my colleague said the guy in the image looks mean, like a serial rapist), but I think there are some resemblance though, especially my hair and facial hair, scruffy. My Star and Rainbow does look like in the pic, the last time I saw her, her hair was shorter but I’m sure it has grown by now. So does Cute Little Hana who has an obsession for shades. Fizz said that pic is so her before she cut her hair, well I’ve never seen her in person anyway. And my buddy Amal, her face and her hair in real life really resembles that image. Except maybe Ayu, the pic did not resemble her in any way or any angle.
There’s this song I’ve been listening to. Not Falling Apart by Maroon 5, Fizz introduced me to this song, well, a nice and bouncy song to listen to especially when you thought your falling apart and down the pit. Somehow by listening to this song, I feel energized and refreshed. Thanks Fizz! So to all you broken hearts out there, go download this song and bounce with me hehe. Love is a sweet poison, but I guess there’s always an antidote no?
And and I was downloading this song by Outlandish titled Callin’ You when I came across the song Aicha, also by Outlandish, apparently a revival of Khaled’s French-Arabic version. Very nice. I think Cute Little Hana downloaded the whole Outlandish album. I told her I’m gonna come up with my own version of the song called Ayu. And should there be a video clip, Cute Little Hana volunteered to be featured in it with her as Ayu and Wentworth Miller as Zul. But then, who’s gonna be Cute Little Hana? LOL!
This afternoon Fizz asked me to download Last Flight Out by Plus 1 after she heard the song on old school tracks on Kristal FM. It’s been ages I didn’t hear this song and yes it’s a sweet song. Must be year 2000 or so. I just broke off with my first girlfriend then. Devastated I was, I guess I’m used to being hurt already.
Listening to old school took me back to those days when I used to hang out with my buddy Amal. One song Save The Last Dance For Me by Michael Buble reminds me of Amal’s birthday celebration few years back. That night, basically all the guys in her life were there, she danced and had fun with them, but I was the one who sent her home, so yea, sort of she saved the last dance for me. Apakanz?! Heheh
Tips: Play this music with this post.
Alya, a colleague cum good friend of mine. This is her debut in this blog. She’s missing someone tonight, someone whom she has no idea if he misses her or think of her too. He forgots Alya’s birthday last two weeks. Basically another version of my story. I know Alya felt the pain of missing someone like this. She was feeling down when I chatted with her few minutes ago
Eza, star and rainbow. I sense that something is not right. With her MSN nick, Friendster profile and the short comment she left in yesterday’s post, she seems to be sad and distressed. I texted her earlier just to check if she’s doing okay, but she didn’t reply. I guess I’ll just leave her alone.
Fizz, she was taking a video with his phone which shows most of his face. At the end, she asked him to look at her but he replied, “why would I?” Yea, why would someone should look at me, Fizz thought. She thought she was just being sensitive but hey, with a respond like that, who wouldn’t? Women are delicate creations and must be handled with care.
Three downside stories I can compile tonight, all on the same night to accompany this cold and gloomy weather. Shall I add the fourth? None other than mine. I don’t know why, but out of the blues, out of no where, out of nothing, I’m suddenly missing Ayu tonight. Not only I’m feeling lousy and restless, I am battered with this feelings. It’s been 15 days since I last heard from her. I wonder what is she doing and if she ever think of me at all. Lot’s of things are playing in my mind right now, so many things. I thought of her, Late Amy, Amal and those who are so dear to me. I thought of my friends, who will be there for me in this kind of situation. Mixed feelings and thoughts, if you should split open my head, you will find mixed vegetables in my head.
I need fresh air, I need to go out, I feel suffocated staying at one position. It’s been a long time I didn’t cruise the highway at 140km/h all the way from Muara to Tutong and back again. Used to do that with some friends, howling the night away, but I guess I’m gonna have to do that all alone.
I was listening to my mp3 playlists on my laptop when this song reached it’s turn. Bintang Di Surga by Peterpan. Hmm I always like this song, somehow it reminds me of those days when I used to hang out with my best buddy Amal. After Late Amy passed away, me and Amal were so devastated. The night after we went out cruising the highway in the rain just to cheer ourselves up, although deep inside we were depressed. If it wasn’t because of Amal, my devastation would have been severe, I know I just can’t handle the grievance all by myself. Luckily Amal was there, she wanted to see the crash site where Amy died, but no way on Earth I’m gonna take her there. I can’t bear to see the place. I might break down myself if I see Amal cry. So I took her for a hot drink at Food Zone instead.
Two days after that dark day, it was Amal’s birthday. We celebrated Amal’s birthday at The Mall, just a simple one, dinner and a little gathering. Amal cried to the fact that Amy was supposed to attend the small party, the seat reserved for her left empty. I hugged Amal, pat her back and wiped her tears although I felt like crying myself. She couldn’t even eat until I brought some noodles for her. Amidst the simple fun that night, there were sorrow we were trying to hide. Before we left, Amal treated everyone in the cafe with some french fries for every table, as a sedekah for Late Amy. I’m proud of her noble heart.
From that night onwards, we agreed that life has to go on, although there are nights when we cried, missing our beloved Amy. Her cute face, her laughter, her giggles. This post is a rememberance for her before we enter the holy month of Ramadhan.
Never too far away.. We won’t let time erase one bit of yesterday, cause we have learned that nobody can take your place, though we can never be.
We’ll keep you close to us when we remember.
Al-fatihah
ps. check out this video clip, especially dedicated for Amy.
Cinta Is Love 
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