Azrul – the guy
Umi – the girl
Fadil – the best friend
Azrul and Umi are good friends, however Azrul is crazily in love with Umi. Umi knew about this very well but she loves him as a good friend. But sometimes Umi’s act doesn’t seem to care about Azrul’s feelings. She would talk about other guys as if not realising that it would hurt Azrul. Azrul would just listen to Umi while he swallowed the bitter pill. He did not show any signs of jealousy or bitterness, all for the sake of Umi’s happiness. Although deep inside he’s broken into pieces.
One day, during their usual lunch out, Azrul can’t help himself from expressing his feelings to Umi. He spilled everything to the last drop. It wasn’t a surprise to Umi, she knew very well how Azrul care so much about her. She nicely rejected saying that she can only accept Azrul as a very good friend, nothing more and nothing less. And this was no surprise to Azrul as well, he knew Umi would reject. But by letting it out to Umi, Azrul felt a sense of relief, at least Umi is aware of what’s inside Azrul’s heart.
“No matter what happens, I can only think of you Umi. Only you.”
Azrul sent Umi home, in the car they talk and joke as usual, although Azrul seems to be a bit down.
At home that night, Umi can’t stop thinking about Azrul and what he had told her during dinner. Azrul is a lovely and caring guy, cheerful and humourous. Just the type of man she wants, but Umi can’t understand why she can’t accept Azrul. Umi fell asleep that night with Azrul’s face in her mind.
4 am in the morning, Umi’s handphone rang, she picked it up and suddenly her head felt heavy, as if the world descended on her head. It was a call from Fadil, Azrul’s best friend. Azrul has been involved in a car accident and in in critical condition. Umi’s legs became weak, she can’t hardly stand. Suddenly she burst into tears, crying, crying and crying.
When morning came, Umi’s mom took her to the ICU to have a look at Azrul. Again Umi broke down when she saw Azrul in such a condition, bruises and bandages, respirator on his face, wires and needles, and a slow beep on the screen. Azrul’s family, close friends including Fadil were there. Fadil said the doctor gave a 50/50 chance. Even if Azrul survived, he could suffer amnesia.
Days and weeks. Azrul’s condition is still the same. Umi paid a visit almost everyday, staring at Azrul’s non-improving condition. Deep inside her heart, she prayed for Azrul’s recovery, so she could talk to him, joke with him just like always. And deep inside her heart, she missed Azrul saying, “Azrul sayang Umi”.
Umi can’t help but crying when one day Fadil said Azrul’s condition is getting worse, pulse is getting weaker. She realised that she too, loves Azrul. It’s just that she’s not ready to accept him. She vowed to herself, if ever Azrul recovered, she will express how she feel. Umi realised how much she had hurt Azrul all these time, but no matter what, it didn’t change how Azrul felt for her.
It was a happiest day for Umi when Fadil texted her Azrul is showing some improvements, he’s starting to groan, move his hands and his head although not fully awake yet. His eyes starts to show some movements beneath the eyelids. Umi was in KK when she recieved the good news.
Few days later, as soon as Umi arrived home, she quickly rushed to the hospital. Azrul’s conditions has been improving indeed, although he still can’t sit but at least he can open his eyes and recognise the people who came. When Azrul saw Umi, he closed his eyes and a drop of tear rolled down his cheeks. Umi suddenly felt guilty as hell for all she did to him. But she had vowed not to hurt him again. Ever.
Weeks pass by, Azrul’s recovery is speeding up although he still can’t sit or walk. The wires had been disconnected but the needles are still glued for the liquids to feed him. Umi and Fadil visited him everyday. Umi just wanted to be next to Azrul throughout his recovery, until he is fully recovered.
That night, Azrul didn’t stop staring at Umi, it’s like his eyes were tied to Umi’s. Before Umi left, she kissed Azrul’s forehead. Azrul whispered,
“I love you”
But Umi didn’t say a thing, she wanted to say I love you too, but her mouth was stucked, and to this day Umi does not know why can’t she just say it. That night at home, Umi thought hard on why can’t she express her feelings towards Azrul. And that night Umi made up her mind, she vowed that she will say it to Azrul tomorrow.
She’s very sure now, crystal clear, she loves Azrul, with all her heart!
The next day, Umi cried big time at the hospital.
“I love you, Azrul! I love you! I love you” crying, sobbing, like she lost her mind.
She kept on saying the words amidst her cries, while hugging Azrul’s motionless body, covered with white sheet.
“I love you Azrul!” Umi sobbed. But Azrul can’t hear it, and will never hear it!
Sometimes love happens when it’s already too late.