They say ‘a dream is just a dream’. Mainan tidur. But then some are gifted with visions and intuition in the form of dreams and instincts. While I don’t really rely much and believe in my dreams, in the past they somehow became a sign for some significant turning point event in my life. Take for example, when my ex-girlfriend had an affair with someone, I had some intuition well in advance that something was not right. Of course, I can tell by the change in her chemistry. I just didn’t felt the love coming from her. She didn’t even seemed eager to talk to me when we she had the chance. Towards the end of the relationship, she didn’t even bother to say hi to me, no good morning or good night messages.

Two weeks after we broke off, I had a dream that she was begging me on my feet. And the next day she came back and tried to fix things. Her relationship with her affair somehow did not last that long. But the damage she inflicted was beyond emotional repair. What she did with the guy is something I cannot reconsider. Yes I can forgive but I cannot forget. I was torn with the decision making process, but I made the right one. I moved on.

Of late, I’ve been having unpleasant dreams. I don’t know if I’ve been thinking too much or is it this bloody battered brain playing mind games with me. I just hope they’re not true. I just don’t want to encounter the same devastation I had years ago, because during these difficult times, I do not think I can cope with it all.

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