Salam everyone, I know it’s too late to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, but yea. In fact Aidil Adha is just around the corner no? Hehe. My Aidilfitri is just the same as always, no new baju melayu, lot’s of open houses and yummy food, thinking of Late Amy on Raya’s eve as always, and for the 2nd consecutive year, overslept for the Eid prayers!

Oh well, Raya was a month old story. I am beginning to realise that I am not getting any younger. I have hit the ‘Kepala 3′ mark which means I am halfway in life i.e. if I live up to the average mortality rate. What have I done for the past 30 plus years? Most importantly my preparation and supplies for the next life. I realised that a good life full of fun, a good career, women or lots of money are just temporary. They come at a certain point in our lives and will leave at anytime by Allah’s will.

But the spiritual readiness to meet our next eternal life? I know I am not prepared. I have wasted my youth with unnecessary fun. I know I have sinned a lot. I forgot that any time death will come and invite us, or perhaps drag us to where we belong, whether we like it or not. I forgot that when The Day comes, our deeds and doings will determine where we will spend our eternal life. Whether in the dark depths of black fire or the glorious blessings full of unimaginable glory.

All my heart has been full of sorrow and frustration which I think I deserved for what I did. And for the first time when I submit myself to God and recite His Holy Name, I found peace, I found the ultimate love.

God please forgive me, for You are Most Merciful.