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Ayu is back in Brunei, I think she came back yesterday, or was it the day before, can’t really remember. Apparently she’ll be on 2 weeks leave, maybe until Raya. And her fiance will also be on leave at the same time. I still remember when we last chat, Ayu was whining coz she’s gonna have to layan her fiance for the 2 weeks. Hmm well I don’t know how’s their relationship goes, from the sound of it Ayu seems to be reluctantly obliged to it. I don’t know and I don’t want to know, none of my business anyway. As far as I am concerned, for the next two weeks, don’t dream I would hear anything from her. Am I missing her? Frankly at the time of this writing, I do, but only a little, not to the extreme. I have got other people and things worth worrying about, other people worth missing, other people to take care of, so yea. Remember the password, “but me tunang orang udah”.
Fizz called me last night in tears. Poor her, she was calling the guy she admired, they were like ‘teman tapi mesra’ but no official strings attached, and when she called him last night, another woman picked up the phone. So Fizz just left a message for him to call her back, which I’m sure up to now, he didn’t. Worst of all, when Fizz asked who’s that lady, the lady said, “you wouldn’t want to know who I am.” And that hurt Fizz a lot. But today Fizz felt a hell lot better, I know she was just shocked last night but today she’s doing just fine, happy as always, alive and kicking. It’s not the end of the world yet Fizz.
Men! Sometimes I just don’t know what men are actually up to. That includes myself.
I first met Eza during National Day early this year, I usually got acquainted with a lot of people during events like that. Few months later we met again when I approached her office booth to enquire about something. I didn’t recognize her though, coz she wasn’t wearing tudong like she did during National Day. She rang my bell, how could I forget her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparkling eyes just because she didn’t wear a tudong. Heheh! That was careless of me.
From then on, we became friends, not just purely business. Although we don’t see much of each other except during transactions, we still keep each other’s name in our MSN contacts. Even now that she’s pursuing further studies and handed over ‘our’ business to someone else, we still maintain our friendship.
On a day when I feel so down, when the sky go dark upon me, when happiness seems to go down the drain, looking at her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparking eyes brings a soothing feeling. Feels like you’re in a colourful garden with white butterflies flying around. Just like millions of twinkling stars on a dark night and a rainbow on a rainy day.
I know Eza is having problems of her own which made her sad and hurt. I dare not ask what exactly happened as I don’t want to hurt her more with such questions. She’s just too nice, tender and lovely to be hurt and bruised, she’s like a delicate flower, deserves to be handled and treated with extreme care. I just want the stars to keep on sparkling and the rainbow to keep on shining.
So darlin’. Whatever happens in your life, be strong! You are my Star and Rainbow, so stay a star and a rainbow that will always sparkle and shine forever. Love ya!
Yesterday we had sungkai at a restaurant with my office mates, except the bosses! Haha! I’m sure you all heard about this place which serves grilled food buffet for $10.90, don’t know the place? It’s just behind the QAF Plaza in Beribi. Now here’s my review and comments, or more to critic.
First of all, the food was good. I helped myself with the grilled lamb chop which made me kinda warm and restless this morning, but yea I love it! Now here’s the down part. Towards the course of the buffet, they did not refill some of the food especially the grilled items. Once all was grilled, then that’s it, you couldn’t ask for more, especially when you had to go through a big flock of hungry piranhas to get your share. I didn’t get to scoop the grilled prawn and when I asked for it, they were about to cool the coal already. And whats worst, they accepted customers’ reservations when they have a limited food preparation. Even before I could speak up, I heard some diners complained already.
But yea, I managed to eat what I wanted to eat, even though I had to share some of them with my friends, especially the grilled prawn. They didn’t even refill the tea and coffee, with that crowd, they just used a small pot for it!!! I’d say poor management on the buffet despite the good food.
Another thing, the place was cramped and packed. I found myself having to squeeze through my way amidst the crowd just to get around. I don’t know if I had to brush against breasts and butts with people in such crowd. The location of the restaurant was the biggest put-off to the experience, unless you’re early enough to secure a table indoors, like we did. Basically located on a sidewalk, the place did not provide a cozy environment to dine. Outdoors, it smell like drain water and they were lots of flies. Flies on food, that’s a major irritation for me, big time, especially for someone with weak immune system like me. Lucky us, we managed to get a table indoors, even that, they were one or two rogue flies flying around. Any health inspectors reading my blog? I think this place needs a spot check!
I guess that will be my last time visitting this restaurant. I don’t mean to destroy your reputation though nor I meant any harm. This is just my personal experience for your own improvement. Your food are delicious, it’s just that there are other factors you might need to look at.
A little bit on the new header image. I’ve received an email asking me if that’s how I really look like. Hahah! Wish I am as good looking as that image (Update: although my colleague said the guy in the image looks mean, like a serial rapist), but I think there are some resemblance though, especially my hair and facial hair, scruffy. My Star and Rainbow does look like in the pic, the last time I saw her, her hair was shorter but I’m sure it has grown by now. So does Cute Little Hana who has an obsession for shades. Fizz said that pic is so her before she cut her hair, well I’ve never seen her in person anyway. And my buddy Amal, her face and her hair in real life really resembles that image. Except maybe Ayu, the pic did not resemble her in any way or any angle.
It’s been a long day, not that I had my hands full with work, but it was full of boredom instead. At work things were so slow and dull, did this did that and it was like only 12pm when I looked at the clock. That was another 3 hours to go. Boring! So so boring! When I got back home, my tummy started to show symptoms of sickness. For the past few weeks my health seems to be fluctuating, I know my immune system is weak. I felt lousy and down, felt bored and tired of basically everything in this life. It’s the same thing day in and day out. Work doesn’t seem to interest me anymore, I think I need a new challenge, a new job that allows me to meet new people but of course not butt-kissers and bureaucrats, just like my part-time job which unfortunately does not provide a job security.
Before sungkai I was alone at home, everyone went out to a cousin’s place to break the fast there. I was supposed to go but my sickness made me stuck on bed. Just when my boredom reached it’s climax, I chatted with my Star and Rainbow, Eza. Ahhh people like her always brighten my day. She’s been feeling kinda low lately but I’m sure she’ll do just fine. It’s been ages I didn’t see her, her beautiful face, cheerful smile and sparkling eyes. Jangan kambang! Haha! She’s gonna go to the airport to send off her sister tomorrow, but but but.. at around the same time, Ayu will be leaving for Aussie too, as usual few days business trip. Options: Go and see both Eza and Ayu. Or just go see Eza, sit at a corner and see Ayu from a distance. Both ways, I know I will melt if I see Ayu. So perhaps the only option is don’t go at all, furthermore Eza does not want me to see her cry to see her sister off. Oh well, let’s see tomorrow. Kinda miss both of them actually, just that Ayu is a biscuit and it might not be worth it to miss her so much. Heheh!
Added new music to this blog. Hope you all like it, an old school play actually. I thought of designing a new header image which will feature some graphic image of me (yes, me!) and Ayu, and also those who I always mention in this blog, the main supporting characters. But hey! Sorry to burst your bubble, but the images won’t resemble our real faces though. Just an artist’s rendition. Heheh! (Update 26th Sept 2006: Header image updated. Hope you guys like it, especially those featured)
Also I’m gonna write about these people soon, the main supporting characters in this blog, beginning with Eza, how I get to know them bla bla bla. Just something for a change instead of writing about Ayu, Ayu and Ayu.
I think it was yesterday I mentioned about my ex-girlfriend. Speak of the devil, today I saw her from a distance. Our eyes met so we just waved at each other. Lets just call her Nana. It was a 2 and half year stint and we broke off when I found out she had an affair with her own colleague, even though I thought I gave her all the love and care one could ever ask for. I guess it just wasn’t enough. This happened in 2000. So yea, we broke off peacefully, despite some of my hot-headed friends volunteered to take down the guy into pieces. But I’m not into violent act so he’s lucky.
Of course I was devastated, support from my dearest friends kept me alive and kicking. Apparently her affair with that guy did not last long coz her dad found out she sneaked out of home and stayed with the guy. They broke off after almost 2 weeks I broke off with her. She started to look for me again, even her family tried to contact me. As much as I missed her, i was battling with my own feelings and good God I was strong enough to reject all the calls and texts. I’ve seen her true colours already. I thought of reconsidering her, but the fact that she sneaked out and stayed with the guy serves a major reason why I did not. Even an hour of them together, anything can happen and of course she will deny, and if anything should happen to her, I don’t want to be accountable for something I did not do.
So yea, I survived the waves of her texts and calls. It was painful, I was falling apart and missing her badly. But then I thought, there’s no point being with someone who I cannot trust anymore. I gave her all the trust she needed and she misused it. So I decided to erase all the evidence of our relationship, to the extent of burning her photos and her love notes. Painful but it was a right decision. My friends, even some of her own friends, applauded me for taking the right move. No point in being with someone who hurt us and has the potential to hurt us again, no matter how much we’re deeply in love with them.
Perhaps sick and tired of my ignorance, she stopped contacting me. I didn’t hear anything from her until 3 years later, 2003. She came back, and I was more than happy to accept her as a friend, no more than that. We even had lunch once and she asked me why don’t I find a girlfriend. I just smiled. She was in a rocky relationship that time and she tried to ask me out on few occassions which I politely declined. I know she was still hoping to get me back in her life but for her, I just couldn’t find any remnants of love that I can rekindle except of course, as a friend.
Until National Day 2004, she popped the Question of the Year. Just a usual friend to friend text while I was waiting to march under the scorching sun. Until she asked me,
“Do you still love me kah?”
I just smiled, if I were to retaliate, this was the time. Revenge is sweet. But I decided to tell her my true feelings in a diplomatic way.
“I care as a friend” my reply was simple but that’s the fact.
After that, her replies seems to be filled with frustration. She would just reply me with a one word text, Bah, K, things like that. I knew she expected a different answer but I just couldn’t lie to myself. Like I said, I’ve extinguished all the flames I had for her. Since then, we drifted apart again although once in a while we still cross paths just like today. And if we did, we would just exchange a simple Hi, how are you? few words and a bye see you again. I heard she’s happily engaged now so I’m happy for her.
I guess things between me and Nana are meant to be like this and I’m glad about it.
Ok I’ve heard a lot about Facebook, so here I am..
There’s this song I’ve been listening to. Not Falling Apart by Maroon 5, Fizz introduced me to this song, well, a nice and bouncy song to listen to especially when you thought your falling apart and down the pit. Somehow by listening to this song, I feel energized and refreshed. Thanks Fizz! So to all you broken hearts out there, go download this song and bounce with me hehe. Love is a sweet poison, but I guess there’s always an antidote no?
And and I was downloading this song by Outlandish titled Callin’ You when I came across the song Aicha, also by Outlandish, apparently a revival of Khaled’s French-Arabic version. Very nice. I think Cute Little Hana downloaded the whole Outlandish album. I told her I’m gonna come up with my own version of the song called Ayu. And should there be a video clip, Cute Little Hana volunteered to be featured in it with her as Ayu and Wentworth Miller as Zul. But then, who’s gonna be Cute Little Hana? LOL!
This afternoon Fizz asked me to download Last Flight Out by Plus 1 after she heard the song on old school tracks on Kristal FM. It’s been ages I didn’t hear this song and yes it’s a sweet song. Must be year 2000 or so. I just broke off with my first girlfriend then. Devastated I was, I guess I’m used to being hurt already.
Listening to old school took me back to those days when I used to hang out with my buddy Amal. One song Save The Last Dance For Me by Michael Buble reminds me of Amal’s birthday celebration few years back. That night, basically all the guys in her life were there, she danced and had fun with them, but I was the one who sent her home, so yea, sort of she saved the last dance for me. Apakanz?! Heheh
I came across this website, a story of an 8 year old girl in Malaysia, Nurin Jazlin who was brutally tortured, raped and murdered. The criminal is still at large. My God! What manner of man could do such a thing? No mercy, no consideration. She’s only an 8 year old girl who was so innocent. If this guy, whoever did it, think he can run away from his crime, then the ultimate justice from the Almighty awaits. No matter where he hide, guilt will always be upon him. And he deserve the most severest of punishment.
I’ve read before about a father who raped his daughter, right here in Brunei. I’m sure he’s currently serving his sentence which I think is less than what he deserves. 20+ strokes? I personally believe that his genitals ought to castrated and fed to dogs. How could a man do such thing to his own offspring, born from his own drop of semen? These people have let lust control themselves thus they did it with no feeling of love or mercy.
Oh well! Life! and men!
To the family of Nurin Jazlin, I express my deepest condolences and patience be with you. Allah will bless her soul and His Justice will be served.
p/s Selamat Hari Guru to my teacher friends
Simpur is organising the Bruneian Blog Awards in 5 categories. Click here for further info. My blog falls under the Personal blog category but hey, guys, please DO NOT nominate me yea. I’m sure there are other better blogs to be nominated hehe.
Anyway, can somebody please complete this script? Heheh!
“Aku itu paling sukak samak soto! Lebih2 lagi soto ayam……. “
That’s it for now
After 16 days of silence, Ayu finally showed up on MSN right on time when I was missing her so extremely. She said she also missed me and asked me why I didn’t leave her love notes on her desk or her mailbox any more. Heheh missing the attention I see. She still have my number though but she didn’t dare to contact me for the time being, I guess you all know the reason. We chatted for a while until she suddenly logged out, disappearing into no where, I guess she’s gonna sink again and I dunno when she’s going to resurface.
Oh well, at least, hearing something from her is enough to make my day. If this is the kind of love we’re going to live, I guess this is it. We might walk our own path, our own separate lives, but there will always be love between us. But I know, it’s not a reason for me not to move on!
“Eeeee… balik-balik sudah ku nalipon ani, message lagi inda ia pandai merrreply. Alum ia mbali crrredit ni. Eee.. time orang beguna kedia ani, indaaaa tia pandai mereply. Baik ku antari ia credit. No more excuuuses.”
“Hellooo baybeeeee… sorry ah, inda sampat mentop-up bah”
“Eee…mbari ingau ati eee… emergency kali ah.. antara hidup dan mati ni!”
“Ahhh… napa babe?”
“Nada ehh… I miss you..”
~~I just call…to say… I love you…~~
Haha, this post is just out of boredom. I’m not sure if those are the exact words. Correct me if I’m wrong. Hmm how come the girl was the one who topped up her boyfriend’s line instead of the other way round? Well, it’s just a radio commercial, but yea I’m sure these things happens in this topsy-turvy world. If I’m the girl, I’d go for a boyfriend who owns a Prima line. Hahahaha! Kidding!
p/s. I’m still terribly missing Ayu.
Tips: Play this music with this post.
Alya, a colleague cum good friend of mine. This is her debut in this blog. She’s missing someone tonight, someone whom she has no idea if he misses her or think of her too. He forgots Alya’s birthday last two weeks. Basically another version of my story. I know Alya felt the pain of missing someone like this. She was feeling down when I chatted with her few minutes ago
Eza, star and rainbow. I sense that something is not right. With her MSN nick, Friendster profile and the short comment she left in yesterday’s post, she seems to be sad and distressed. I texted her earlier just to check if she’s doing okay, but she didn’t reply. I guess I’ll just leave her alone.
Fizz, she was taking a video with his phone which shows most of his face. At the end, she asked him to look at her but he replied, “why would I?” Yea, why would someone should look at me, Fizz thought. She thought she was just being sensitive but hey, with a respond like that, who wouldn’t? Women are delicate creations and must be handled with care.
Three downside stories I can compile tonight, all on the same night to accompany this cold and gloomy weather. Shall I add the fourth? None other than mine. I don’t know why, but out of the blues, out of no where, out of nothing, I’m suddenly missing Ayu tonight. Not only I’m feeling lousy and restless, I am battered with this feelings. It’s been 15 days since I last heard from her. I wonder what is she doing and if she ever think of me at all. Lot’s of things are playing in my mind right now, so many things. I thought of her, Late Amy, Amal and those who are so dear to me. I thought of my friends, who will be there for me in this kind of situation. Mixed feelings and thoughts, if you should split open my head, you will find mixed vegetables in my head.
I need fresh air, I need to go out, I feel suffocated staying at one position. It’s been a long time I didn’t cruise the highway at 140km/h all the way from Muara to Tutong and back again. Used to do that with some friends, howling the night away, but I guess I’m gonna have to do that all alone.
9 am has come and gone. I didn’t go and see Ayu after all although I wanted to as much as I can. Even my assistant noticed my restlessness this morning, I was like sitting, standing, sit again then got up again pointlessly. But I still remember Fizz’s text at 3.09am this morning while I was fast asleep, “Zul, you may do anything you want in the world, except hurting yourself i.e. meeting her.” On top of that, I will always remember what Ayu once said, “but me tunang orang dah”. I know I kept on saying that phrase but it is such a powerful quote. I’m just not ready to see her just yet. If I had to bump into her, let it just be a hi and a bye.
I’m going for an interview tomorrow morning for a different position within the firm, better pay and if I should get this job, I won’t have to deal directly with Ayu’s office anymore although I would still be in the same building. I’m not hoping to get this job though, coz I know there are other candidates who are worth the job than me. But I’m just going to try out my luck. No harm in trying kan.
I’ve been hearing to Ada Cinta song today, on my Winamp, in my car. It’s been a rainy and cold day and I felt like listening to the song, I don’t know why. I think I’m missing her more than ever today. Yea I know I should be moving on, but there’s nothing wrong in remembering her right? I’m moving on, that does not mean I’m gonna find someone new just yet. I don’t rush relationships, not like any other men would do i.e. if you think they are. I’m just friendly, sometimes too friendly that some people to my disappointment, took it differently. I got acquainted with a new colleague in my part-time job last week and after two days, I had a good time over coffee with this guy already. Yes I am just a man, another man, just like any other men, along the line, but I am not like any of them! Our behaviours, the way we think may be the same but we are all entirely different. God might have created us with the same black hair for us Asians in this case, but He gave us different hearts and brains. Not that I’m saying I’m good or better than any other man, I have my own flaws and weaknesses. But yea, everyone has the right to their own opinion, so it is up to you guys.
Now that I’ve been listening to the song, I saw the movie VCD in the living room. I think either my sister or brother must have bought it. Hmm, should I watch it? Well, let’s see, honestly I don’t feel like watching it coz it will bring back the memories. I’ve suffered enough of having to think about her involuntarily every now and then. I’ve had enough pain and agony, so I guess I’ll just get someone to put the VCD some place safe.
It’s Monday tomorrow, and there will be a chance for me to see Ayu at 9 am. It’s just something about work which made the chance possible. So I don’t know, should I or should I not? I know she can’t contact me coz I’ve got the feeling her fiance must have deleted my number from her phone. Ahhh I just don’t know, let’s see what happens tomorrow.
Went to Hua Ho Bunut this afternoon to buy some stuff. It’s only the third day of puasa and they were playing Raya songs already, kinda spoil the Ramadhan mood don’t you think. They should have played it at least 2 weeks before Raya. Rasa jua kan get everyone into the Raya shopping mood, business strategy. I’m sure in 2 weeks time, shopping centres will be packed and mosques will be quiet, everyone will start to forget that the last 10 days of Ramadhan are full of blessings.
Just another lazy day today, spent most of my day at home doing my ‘homework’ except a short visit to a cousin’s place, atupun I fell asleep in his living room. I felt much better than yesterday though, it’s been a long time I didn’t spend a weekend on bed.
I guess that’s it for today heheh! I feel like writing something though, something about us, men! But I just don’t know how to put it in words. All I can ask is, are we ‘men’ all the same? I’ll leave it to you guys to figure out.
Second day of fasting, somehow I don’t feel well although I’ve been hiding this from everyone, trying to be as cheerful as always. But in fact, I felt so tired, weak and groggy. I don’t think its the caffeine withdrawal coz I had my coffee shot last night. At work, nothing much going on, my boss was happy and less annoying today, kena bagi kali ia leh bininya before puasa ah! Haha apakanz?! Accompanied my colleague to do a little survey on some offices, thank God the weather was nice and cool. Passed by Ayu’s office but I didn’t enter, I don’t know if she was there or not, in fact I don’t even know if she’s back in Brunei already. I’m moving on.. remember “but me tunang orang udah..”. But I’d be lying if I say I don’t miss her.
Texted Fizz once I got my free texts notification from DSTCare, 6 free texts while she got 4, courtesy of our whole day texts yesterday, I got extra 2 coz I was texting with others too. We didn’t text much today coz we were working and then she went out with her friend. After sungkai, I remembered that I have some ‘part time homework’ to do, good! Something to keep me busy although I never like ‘homework’ since my schooldays. But this ‘part time homework’ is something I enjoyed, I guess if I tell you, you all should have an idea of what line of job I am into. Heheh! Hint: multimedia.
After 30 minutes in front of my laptop, my eyes hurt, my head groggy again. Saved my work and hit the sack, thought of having a little nap but instead I woke up at 1130pm. Fizz texted around 9-ish asking what I am doing and I only replied as soon as I got up. No reply from her, I bet she must have been asleep. Good night Fizz. Now I’m kinda fresh, so I guess I’m gonna get back to my ‘homework’ just to kill this dreadful loneliness.
Move on Zul! Yea… but move where? I’m stranded
It’s the first day of fasting, slept late last night chatting and texting with my new friend Fizz. Although I just knew Fizz recently, it’s like we’ve known each other for ages. She’s a nice and lovely girl, friendly, and we just have plenty of stories to share. I guess our stories are almost identical hence that makes us kinda have something in common. We’re starting to build a trust between us. I don’t give my phone number to my readers but I guess when it comes to Fizz, I’ll follow my instinct.
I’ve been chatting with some readers recently and they brightened up my day, especially today, I’ve been texting with Fizz since I woke up and believe me, at the time of this writing, we’re still texting! Let’s see how many free texts are we entitled tomorrow. So many things to talk about, from our love stories to chocolates and umbrellas! heheh! I don’t really chat much even though my MSN is on most of the time. Usually I would chat with my Star And Rainbow Eza or Cute Little Hana but they’re kinda busy with their studies so I guess I better not interrupt them.
Another young reader I chat with, Wani, who I think is a fan of Cute Little Hana. She once asked me how does Cute Little Hana looks like, how old is she, etc. Wani said she must be cute and little as her name suggests, hehe. Well, my cute little sister is sure cute and little. So Cute Little one, you’ve got a fan now.
So yea, it’s the first day of puasa, woke up at noon, took a shower and started texting with Fizz. It was a lazy day for both of us, most of the time spent on my bed while texting with her. Towards the end of the afternoon I suffered a mild headache which I can only diagnose one thing. Caffeine withdrawal. I’m so used to drink coffee every morning as my fuel and obviously today I didn’t get my dose. So there, the mild pain on my head, prompting me to get a shot of coffee. Oh well, I’ll be fine in a week, this happens every first week of Ramadhan.
One last bitching before we enter Ramadhan, hehe! I came a bit late to work after taking my sweet time out of bed and I was kinda irritated when I entered office this morning. Especially having to look at my boss with that kind of look, doing his work with bitter expression and pouted lips. Not a good day to start with. Sometimes I just don’t know what’s his problem, he’s been spoiling our mood and cheerful days lately. Oh well, bosses will always be bosses, aren’t they all the same? Ok enough said.
We’ll start fasting tomorrow, let us all welcome the holy month of Ramadhan with an open heart. I’m not a pious man, I don’t know when was the last time I prayed. But today, I humble myself before God and ask for His mercy and blessings, I pray for Him to give me peace of mind, serenity and tranquility. And on top of all, I pray God to bless Ayu happiness and never ending love.
Happy Ramadhan and selamat berpuasa to all!
-Z-
I was clearing up my locker at work when I found an unused greeting card I bought in Australia some time last year. It says “Somebody loves you..” on the cover and “Me!” inside. Hmm the card was not intended for anyone when I bought it, but as a collector of greeting cards, I bought it coz of its catchy phrase and cool colours. So there it was hiding in my locker beneath the stacks of junk in it.
Suddenly a wild idea came into my mind. I guess you all can read my mind by now! Heheh! Wink..wink.. Am I gonna put the card on her desk again? Well, let’s see, but I don’t think so lah. Remember Zul! Remember what she said. “…but me tunang orang dah!” So the card shall remain in my locker for now :)
I was listening to my mp3 playlists on my laptop when this song reached it’s turn. Bintang Di Surga by Peterpan. Hmm I always like this song, somehow it reminds me of those days when I used to hang out with my best buddy Amal. After Late Amy passed away, me and Amal were so devastated. The night after we went out cruising the highway in the rain just to cheer ourselves up, although deep inside we were depressed. If it wasn’t because of Amal, my devastation would have been severe, I know I just can’t handle the grievance all by myself. Luckily Amal was there, she wanted to see the crash site where Amy died, but no way on Earth I’m gonna take her there. I can’t bear to see the place. I might break down myself if I see Amal cry. So I took her for a hot drink at Food Zone instead.
Two days after that dark day, it was Amal’s birthday. We celebrated Amal’s birthday at The Mall, just a simple one, dinner and a little gathering. Amal cried to the fact that Amy was supposed to attend the small party, the seat reserved for her left empty. I hugged Amal, pat her back and wiped her tears although I felt like crying myself. She couldn’t even eat until I brought some noodles for her. Amidst the simple fun that night, there were sorrow we were trying to hide. Before we left, Amal treated everyone in the cafe with some french fries for every table, as a sedekah for Late Amy. I’m proud of her noble heart.
From that night onwards, we agreed that life has to go on, although there are nights when we cried, missing our beloved Amy. Her cute face, her laughter, her giggles. This post is a rememberance for her before we enter the holy month of Ramadhan.
Never too far away.. We won’t let time erase one bit of yesterday, cause we have learned that nobody can take your place, though we can never be.
We’ll keep you close to us when we remember.
Al-fatihah
ps. check out this video clip, especially dedicated for Amy.
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